Ok, maybe this is a bit of cheating in completing my “write/post every day for 30 days” declaration…..but, never hurts to read back over things, see how far you’ve come, or how much wiser you were than you realized, etc. Plus, this was on the old blog and as I was reading through some of the oldies, it made me smile (and laugh, because I forgot all about hitting on the Russian).
Happy FINALLY FRIDAY!
9/21/2011
Quote of the Day: And no one will listen to us until we listen to ourselves – Marianne Williamson
Song of the day: Holy Captivated by Nicole Mullens (click the song title to listen on youtube – as a matter of fact, click it now and let it play in the background while you read :)!!!)
Normally I try not to “preach” and I certainly have enough work to do on me to keep me busy for a while versus judging others. BUT……..I LOVE a good Jesus song and this one was it today. Just so relaxing. Make no mistake, I’m in no way, shape or form ashamed of God or my faith. Just because I choose not to feed it to you by shoving a spoon of it down your throat every waking minute of every waking day, doesn’t mean I don’t have a purpose and doesn’t mean that I don’t live for HIM. I would gladly share my story and testimony with anybody who would listen!
– I’m happy. As cheesy and quite uneventful as it is to type that…..it is the truth. And it’s not even that hard to be happy. I have no idea if it’s age, or what…..but this is THE BEST time of my life. Period. And 90% of it is because I’ve made my mind up to be. So, unfortunately for you, the rest of this blog is just about happy….and a little bit of funny
– Girlfriends: How have I lived my life so long not putting more investment into this type of friendship. I’ve never been good at girl friendships. I just haven’t. I’m too blunt, I’m like a guy in a lot of ways and just always had a lot of guy friends. I don’t like to shop so that counts me out in about 4 million ways. Also, I felt like I had to be absolute friends with every single person I came into contact with. Do you have any idea how exhausting that can be? But at this very moment, the girls I consider my “core” are the most amazing group of women on the planet. I’m horrible at remembering events, staying in contact often and being sensitive to a lot of their lives…..but it’s a work in progress and one that I’m more than committed to. Girlfriend time is VITAL to my existence.
- For instance, today via email and a nice walk, I seriously had the best afternoon I’ve had in a while. And all of it was shared with a dear girlfriend. It’s random (and a little weird quite honestly) to experience “love” in this way. But that’s exactly what it is. This unexplainable love that I have. I won’t dwell on sadness or regret, but I do hate to think about all the time I wasted trying to “be somebody” to somebody else or a group of girls instead of “being me” to somebody.
– In my recent reflection of happiness, I sometimes get overwhelmed. Mostly I get overwhelmed at the people who genuinely like me. I can honestly count on one hand how many people before now in my life that I felt confident in saying genuinely liked me. To even type that makes me a little sick at my stomach. And maybe more genuinely liked me, I just didn’t believe it. But to experience it now…….man, it can change a heart like no other. But…..because I finally love me, and am finally happy with me, I can finally see why people would like me (which is really a blog within itself). I wish I could bottle it up and sell it to save a lot of young girls a lot of worry and heartbreak. Love yourself now. Right this very second decide to value yourself and love yourself more than anything else!
– Declaration: Man, did I used to feel like I had to “declare” everything. If I didn’t declare whatever movement I was in at the time, then it wasn’t real, it wasn’t significant and nobody would notice. I honestly thought this for way too long. Now, I get sooooo excited to just be quiet and “do” versus “declare”. Although I have more than enough work cut out for me in “doing” and being an example, I am so much further along than I was. Standing on the rooftop shouting “Look at me do this” isn’t really “doing” anything but straining your voice……and frankly, I’m too big and out of shape to climb the staircase to the roof to shout in the first place. I’ll just stay on level ground. Looking in the mirror and seeing someone different, or hearing some of the responses I give out loud now versus then is enough for me J
– As I compile my “ever so often” About Alicia or Alicia Clarifications blog, I come across things that make me wonder…..I can’t be the only one who feels this way or has dealt with this. So….that is why I share the cheese. Just like with the new facebook that everyone hates……if you don’t like it, you don’t have to look at it! I just wanted to ramble a little about happy tonight. Because being happy is way better than any other alternative. I know you’re all on pins and needles for that blog huh?
OK, NOW ON TO THE RANDOMNESS that you all expect!!!
– Sometimes there is such a revival of music (all kinds) in my car……that I’m singing so hard, so loud and so into my performance…….that I’m driving with my eyes closed. I never really noticed it til today. And spare me words of wisdom…..I know it’s not safe. But, as I try to monitor it and tone it down a little, I still think everyone should have the same kind of revival at least once. Turn the music up as loud as you can stand, and belt it out…….dance moves and all!!!
– The time has come. I dreaded it for a while. I’ve heard thousands of stories and encounters. I’ve been blinded in thinking “that won’t happen to me”. But it has. I cannot sleep a full night without waking up to pee. The first night it happened, I brushed it off. The second night I just thought “well this is silly”. Now, on night number 8, I’m just bothered. Will I ever sleep all night again? Will my better ever understand that getting up at 3am to pee does not mean it’s time to wake up for the day? Will I ever be able to walk to the bathroom without running into something? Where has my bladder gone? We had good times!
– Technology: I’ve tried to figure out how to insert this with a positive tone. And if I don’t type it now, the issue will be expired by the next blog post. So let’s try this. We all love technology! Isn’t it awesome!? Look how far we have come with it! And because we are a wonderfully demanding people, there is constant pressure to produce more and better and faster technology. So……we might as well coin a synonym for technology to be “change”. Because essentially anymore, you can’t have technology without change. And that’s what makes the new facebook so exciting! Although I would love a website of my own that is as successful as the FREE site of Facebook, I will continue to use it because it’s already there, it’s totally free, and I’m just too busy with other amazing projects to put them out of business right now J Another positive, beautiful thing is that in most things these days, if you don’t like something, you can change it, or stop using it. So………maybe instead of being so angry, we could choose a different approach. It’s going to change…..a lot. If it didn’t, it would become crazy stagnant. And there is absolutely nothing wrong with you not liking it or even hating it. There’s nothing wrong with you posting it. People in this time have a thought and post it….that’s just how it works and I’m the biggest participator. But what if you just wrote a nice concern to facebook the company? Or what if we spent a few minutes just checking out the new gig and see what’s different? That’s as nice as I can say “look people, things change, if you don’t like it, don’t use it…….” And I mean that in the nicest, sincerest, most loving way possible!!!!!
– As a side note, I realize I have complained on fb several times, especially in regards to Sonic switching to soft mints. But I’ve also expressed those concerns in a “complaint” process to the company (and Starbucks for being out of coffee for that matter)
– Russia: So…….I saved the best for last. I think I need an intervention. If I’m to the point where I crush on a 6’4” Russian (I only throw that out there to show the language barrier we clearly had), driving a lime green VW Bug who fixes iphones for a living in parking lots…….then I may need to go on some dates more than I thought. True story. Dude fixes phones. I heard about him, contacted him, set up a meeting. He shows up, explains the process, leaves. Brings my phone back in amazing shape, offers a warranty, and is wearing an affliction shirt for Pete’s sake…….and all I think about when he walks off is “strangely I’m attracted to him”. He has no ring on. I propose this scenario of me asking him out to two friends at lunch today who are in complete agreement…..with way more enthusiasm than I expected (mostly because they wanted to follow me around on the date and document it). So……..after lunch, I text him. The following is a transcript of that convo (comments in red are my added commentary, those were not actually texted):
Me: Hi there! Just wanted to share that everyone thinks the phone looks great. You did an awesome job! (Really???? I typed that to him. Smooth. I’m really smooth!!)
Him: Hi! Thank you, that feedback is much appreciated
Me: Anytime!
Him: Thank you, nice to hear about that
Me: Definitely (do you want to poke your eyes out yet, this is torture)
Me: I feel kind of silly asking, but are you single by chance?
Him: Just got married, 4th of July
Me: Awesome! A girl in my office would’ve just loved you! I was going to play matchmaker, congrats on the wedding!
What we have here folks is epic failure, maybe a little bit of boredom (I’ve scaled back on my life, work and home, that’s it for a year), and sheer silliness.
The end.
Alicia Out Loud 