Today, I am unstoppable. It’s a dangerous place to be for someone with my drive and personality. When you wake up feeling this good and confident, you can take over the world. And usually, you do, for that day. The dangerous part comes in when you have so much confidence and excitement for the day that your cares and give a crap meter breaks. You are more likely to take on that tough situation with a little more gumption than normal.
That’s where I am at today. My name is Alicia, and I am unstoppable. I have an amazing outfit (which we will touch on in a bit), good hair, sparkly bracelets, and I feel great (which is few and far between these days with this new illness bullcrap). And all of that makes me dangerous.
MAYBE, just maybe, typing this out loud will keep me from going “all out” today. We can hope. But I have an overwhelming urge to address a lingering topic in my life and doing it in this fabulous outfit just seems right.
We all know I love furiously. That’s the problem with my personality. When I go, I go hard. I’m in 410% and sometimes it’s more than disappointing when I don’t feel like the person on the other side is in the same amount. We’ve talked before in previous blogs about my need to keep my heart in check. I can’t keep giving it away or I’m not going to have any left for the actual right person that comes along.
Lately, I seem to be the one left standing alone while past suitors latch on to great new relationships. The typical stuff seems to happen. They don’t want me or commitment, but then they all of the sudden find THAT woman that makes them do everything they said they would never do and ride off into eternal bliss sunset. OF COURSE I am not delusional enough to think that it really is that perfect. But, let’s be honest, when you’re hurt, it sure seems like it.
BUT TODAY. TODAY, in all that is fabulous within me. With all the truth that I know about me and the over abundance of feel good, I address this in my life. TODAY is the day that worrying about or comparing myself to the new girl (or any other girl) stops.
I’m sorry I wasn’t for you. Maybe I was too strong. Maybe I was too clingy. Maybe I was too much in general for a host of reasons. Maybe you knew that you couldn’t keep up with me or be the top notch man I deserved. Maybe you didn’t like my size. WHATEVER the reason, that’s on you. And it’s ok. Because you not wanting me doesn’t make me less awesome. TODAY is the day that I say that out loud and give zero cares.
Today, you and your new girlfriend can suck it. I will just be over here looking amazing in my great outfit and working on being a better me. Working towards the best me, actually.
*Disclaimer: for all the Nosey Roseys out there – this is not directed at one particular man. There are plenty of exes in my life lately that have gotten way too much of my energy and comparing. To the exes – don’t get butt hurt. You’re the ones who didn’t want me, so don’t sit there and pout that I’m writing about it. 🙂
NOW – about this outfit! I caved and tried Gwynnie Bee. It’s a clothes subscription much like Stitch Fix, but for plus sized women. Honestly, they drove me nuts on email and I was about to unsubscribe until they offered me a free month. Of course, they send me this greatness in an effort to pull me in further……and it’s almost working.
- The jacket is sheer. The tag even says “M”, as in medium, which I appreciate (even though I accept that I’m not)
- The skirt, well, it’s just heaven. It fits like a glove. It’s comfortable. And I NEVER thought I would love a slit in my skirt, BUT I DO.
- I added my own jewelry, cami and heels and VOILA, you see the awesome result.
- Bonus: my nails just happen to be glittery too!
I repeat, I am unstoppable. 🙂