You know how sometimes you just know? You KNOW that was the right job to take. You KNOW moving to that new city was just right. You KNOW that coffee and caramel and whip cream all go together. You just KNOW.
Imagine walking into a room and just KNOWING that what was across the way was meant for you. Sure, you might pass by it trying to convince yourself that your mind is just playing tricks on you. You try to amuse yourself with other distractions as to forget about what you knew when you first walked in. You try to ignore that feeling in the pit of your stomach and the increased beats of your heart. You might even try to fill that space that you KNOW is supposed to be filled with just this one thing, with other things instead.
But sometimes you just know. So, finally you drift over to that part of the room where THAT THING is waiting on you. You reach out for just a soft touch and before you know it, arms are intertwined and you lose all inhibition.
That folks, is what it felt like when I went into Target recently. This furry vest drew me in like a moth to a flame. I tried other areas of the store for comfort. I am not supposed to be buying new clothes anyway so I needed to just put it out of my mind. Ok, maybe I’ll buy something new, but there is no reason for me to own a pink furry vest. I will just buy shoes instead. Nope. Nothing satisfied. I finally go over to try the vest on and convince myself that it just didn’t look right. I didn’t need the added layers on my body. Where would I really wear it to anyway? We just weren’t a match, I told myself. It would never work.
So, I left it. Hanging here for someone else to love. I’ll never be the same.
Even though this was maybe written a bit dramatically for a fur vest, it resembles my life more than I care to talk about. I cannot keep letting things get away just because I convince myself that I shouldn’t have them! If you KNOW something, if you feel it in all your bones and your heart beats faster for it…..then you have to go after it. It doesn’t have to to work. It doesn’t have to be the greatest thing you’ve ever done. But it cannot go unapproached. It just can’t!
Farewell pink furry vest of greatness. I will never forget the lesson you have taught me.
Alicia Out Loud 