Expensive Easter

Every year as a little girl, we would get new Easter dresses. I would start imagining my look long before the shopping trip. I would start daydreaming because I knew I would get something super nice…..I mean, Grandma was funding the occasion, so…. I was excited to get spoiled (never mind that I later figured out it was probably because she wanted to control the narrative of how we presented ourselves as a family and to make sure we didn’t embarrass her at her snotty church). My parents were poor (I never knew how poor til I got older), so I knew I could push a few limits with Grandma and Grandpa’s checkbook 😎

Sweet Easter memories (circa 2014)

Even though it was on a grandparent’s dime, I still usually had to go with my third or fourth choices. It never failed that first and second choices were always too expensive. I wanted it all. The gloves, the hat, tights, pleats….alll the things. I can still vividly remember the year I got my first choice. It was a light pink peplum jacket top and a pleated gray skirt. Ohhhhhhhhhh I felt fancy in that! I wish you could have seen it! I guess now that I type it out loud, it seems as if I have always had expensive taste (although I have no idea where I would’ve gotten that exposure because we were so poor).

Easter 2020 look

This year’s dress was a direct reflection of every Easter dress search from year’s past.  I wanted something unique and new…..and hat’s exactly what I found.  It was perfect.  Then Easter got “canceled”.  And I went into “dress depression” :p

It isn’t just the dress though. My family has always celebrated Easter in a big way. Starting with church, then the big lunch and of course, the Easter egg hunting…..it was all done big. My mom makes sure her and her husband coordinate perfectly and it’s the cutest thing. I visit my Niece’s church and hear my favorite church singer (Love your voice, Abbie!). It really is the sweetest time of year! This quarantine situation has me feeling things so much more intensely and missing my traditional Easter is no different. I can hear the sounds, smell the grass and am clinging to memories of some of the sweetest hymns you would hear. I’m gonna miss all that so much.

Easter 2019 with 2 of my favorite ladies!

BUT, when I really picked things apart today (more than normal), I also realized that more than the above, I think I loved Easter and the new dress tradition because it brought the “new” in so many underlying areas of life.  It’s not just a cheesy trend.  There is something in the atmosphere that Easter brings (other than the obvious factor of Jesus starting the “new life” trend long before my shopping trips to JC Penney)…….it signals a new season and a chance to start the next phase of the year more freshly than the previous.  

We Spring clean. We bring out fresh linens and brighter decor. We get new clothes that say “breath of fresh air”. And some of us sit in complete awe that someone sat with people who betrayed them, faced the ultimate torture and STILL chose to die for us. Some of us need that reminder in the way that only Easter brings. No matter what you believe, we all need “new” at some point. And although quarantine life is not the “new” I had imagined when I bought the perfect Easter dress, it has caused a slow down and given me more new than I would’ve ever gotten from a yard of brightly colored eggs or sneaking deviled eggs out of the kitchen before lunch was ready. I will (and have the past few days) pay attention to the Easter story probably differently than I ever have before.

Just because Easter is different, it certainly doesn’t mean I can’t wear the dress. So, I did. I sported my Easter lunch outfit too. I also delivered Easter baskets to some friends. I made my own deviled eggs and I spent time on my porch listening to my short Easter playlist and just being still (not something I’m great at). And for the first time since this quarantine business started, I feel like I’m accepting the pause and I’m gonna come out on the other side of this a new person (cheesy, but I mean it….I already see it and outside of the uncomfortable struggle, I don’t think I’m gonna hate her).

Easter 2020….sheer and still sweet!

I hope you’re wearing your new Easter clothes too and sharing them with the internet.  I think we could all use some “fresh looks” in our internet scrolls.  I hope you know that you were to die for (and that someone did).  And I hope that if you’re still reading at this point, that I’m cheering for the new in you too!  

Published by Fancy Pants

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2 thoughts on “Expensive Easter

  1. I love this soooooo much!
    Your 2020 sheer Easter find is AMAZING! What a FABULOUS color on you. You are totally rockin this “different kind of Easter” in style. And thank you for cheering on the “new me” that is blossoming in quarantine also. I feel growth happening and it feels a bit uncomfortable. There are many days I want to stay in the dark and hibernate until all of this is over. And yet I also feel a tug in my soul to press on and remain engaged and let others know we truly are in this together, yet at a distance. It’s weird. This forced social disconnection is causing us all to really just BE…. with ourselves. How unusual to have so much private time, which I love, yet am beginning to grow a tad weary of. I miss hugs! I miss being out and about, like everyone else does. For now though, I am doing my best to be content and enjoy this unique circumstance of so much quality time, that may never happen again.
    CARPE DIEM. I will seize this day and the day after today and the one after that until our “normal” life returns, or whatever version of that exists for all of us in some way or another.

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    1. Thank you so much for sharing your heart!! I miss all those things too, but nan, am I learning more and more raw than I ever have been.
      It’s funny how you change when you can’t escape the emotion you feel, bc you’re stuck with yourself! I’ll be sharing more on that and hope you’ll read and check in again!

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