Ok, so round 327 of being iced in this year has gotten to my brain so much that I’m turning my titles into plays of other phrases. Which, happen to be pretty funny to me, but I doubt you all reading this are on the floor laughing.
In being trapped inside for what feels like the 898th day (even though it has really only totaled about 13 thus far I think), I forced myself to get a lot of randomness out of my head. I promised myself I would not be lazy and give in to the temptation to nap in between conference calls. I promised to apply a lot of check marks of completion to my ridiculously long to do list. And, I promised to not ignore my random thoughts today. I firmly believe these “snow days” are a divine conspiracy to make me slow down. So, today I decided to embrace it. After a random call with a friend to get some things off my chest and attempt to do it in a humorous manner, she noted “girl you are so crazy, the things that come out of your mouth”……no….I am “snow” crazy……and I am “snow” sick of this weather. Ok, I’ll stop. Here are some things that are “snow” random in my head these days J (sorry, just HAD to do it one more time)
Boys: late last week a guy emailed me on a dating site I’m on to say hello in the form of a poem. When I checked out his profile, I found that he apparently had a vision from God that lead him to this dating site and to put at least 4 pages worth of info about himself in the “About Me” section. Maybe it was a little mean, but out of sheer boredom, I replied and asked that based on what he said in his profile and the fact that he reached out to me did that mean “I was the one”. He quickly replied “yes, you are”. Wow. Could this be it? His next message informed me that his vision from God was very clear of me lying on a bed, in my pajamas with my shoes off (which leaves me wondering who lays in bed with their shoes on in their pjs), smiling at him. He was very clear that it was me. Hmmm…really? No thank you. Don’t you think that if God himself so clearly laid out “the one” for you, that he might also inform that person in some way as well. Maybe the postcard is delayed, but I haven’t had any indication that he was the one for me. In addition to that, if you knew for sure it was me…….then why did you need to make such an in depth profile for everyone to read. Wouldn’t you just make a general profile and save all the juicy details about yourself for our private convo? That’s just my take. I have not heard from him since that last email so I’m guessing he had another vision that counted me out of the running.
Oscars: I missed the red carpet and the whole show for the most part because I was watching Dallas Buyer’s Club. However, my observations of what I did see are that the women looked beautiful, the men looked handsome and the speeches were great. The one thing I noticed (and noted in yesterdays blog) is that everyone that wins is in such a rush to thank everyone and make it through their incredibly long list of names before they are rushed off stage. What is wrong with assuming that someday you will definitely win an award and just starting to thank those who you feel “made the list” now? So, I am randomly going to start thanking people so that when I get my big award, I can use the time to breathe, be grateful and say something absolutely epic that sparks as many articles/updates/shares as Matthew M saying “I thank God”. And…I’ll save that topic for another blog someday : ) Today I would thank my church camp leader Terry Gregory. She grabbed me at one of our camps and said “some day you are going to be a great leader”. That was the first time in my life I can remember anyone thinking or believing anything like that about me and speaking it out loud to me. I’m not sure I have accomplished it yet, but I think of that moment almost every single day.
Detox: Accckkk!!! Today was the first day of a trainer guided 21 day detox program. The problem? Well, there are a few.
- I am a procrastinator. So, did I, knowing the weather was going to be bad on Sunday, make my grocery list and shop early so that I could prepare the meals I needed? Nope. Of course I didn’t. Thankfully I did get some fruits and veggies so I can make it on those til I have a clear weather day to shop.
- Also, in my procrastination, I did not do an inventory of what I had and get rid of the “bad stuff” that is in the house. For example, Ben & Jerry’s Pistachio ice cream. Full pint. Just sitting there whispering “eat me, it’s ok, you’re trapped inside”. It should also be mentioned that I bought my team at work a whole box of Butterfinger Cups (THE BEST NEW CANDY EVER) and planned on delivering it to them to eat today. Since our office was closed, they sit on my table begging for my attention.
- I am guilty of being an emotional eater. It seems like when someone like me puts myself in a situation like this, the first few days, all I think about is flippin food. But I know that this is what is best for me and I am SO EXCITED about some great things that I know are going to happen for me this year. I want to be as prepared for those as possible and be of clear mind and body : )
- I am a horrible cook.
Exercise: I signed up for a “women can run” clinic that starts this week. I have no idea why I am so obsessed with becoming a runner. I hate it while I’m doing it. I can’t imagine what I must look like moving “all this” at a pace faster than a brisk walk. But, it’s new, and that’s another promise I made for 2014. I must try something that makes me uncomfortable and no matter how bad I hate it, I must complete it. It’s a 10 week course with a “graduation” run at a 5k event for this group (Women Run). If I am actually able to still breathe when this time comes, I have decided to run in a graduation cap and gown! Glittered support signs welcome.
As I sit here looking out the window at the BRIGHT blue sky and untouched snow, I just find peace. My mind is busy with lots of noise but my heart is full. My hope is that even though this blog basically has zero point (other than to fulfill the promise to myself to write every day for 30 days), that you feel inspired to sit down for a few minutes and let your random, “snow crazy” side out! : )
Alicia Out Loud 